Gen. 3:4-5- Then the serpent said, “You will not surely die. For Yahweh knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like Yahweh, knowing good and evil.”
So, I’ve become aware recently of an attack that I had overlooked. I’ve been so used to being attacked blatantly, that I missed the one that one hurting me the most; For almost ten years I have been oppressed by a spirit, and I didn’t realize until a few months ago that I had let it in.
You see, unlike the other attacks I’ve been victim to, this one came at me a bit sideways- this spirit became my friend. It pretended to care for me, to want the best for me, but all along it led me into self destructive behaviors and clouded my senses so I couldn’t see Truth as I'm supposed to.
It came at me at a time when I was lonely, and confused, acting like it was trying to help me, and I foolishly let it in, without questioning it. I invited it to stay, and it did, keeping me company, and all the while whispering lies in my ear and leading me away from my Heavenly Father. It effected the way I relate to other people, clouded my empathy so as to make me misunderstand what was in front of me, and hurt me emotionally over and over, and I didn’t realize it. And through that door, it brought friends. I’ve been spending the last few months trying to rid myself of them, and it’s been a difficult and painful battle.
I became aware of it, because it accidentally tipped its hand, by pushing too far and getting greedy. It led me into a situation where I was completely and totally… wrong. I misunderstood what was in front of me and acted in an embarrassingly foolish manner, bending some of my own rules on morality, instigated the whole way by this Demon, who kept insisting to me that what my eyes and ears were seeing wasn’t true, that what it told me was real, despite what else was going on.
The saving grace of the situation was that Yahweh protected the others involved, and didn’t allow me to infect them with this same spirit, and they are still safe. I thank Yahweh every day for that.
As for how to get rid of this parasite, I’m still working on it. I finally had a confrontation with it, and it identified itself as a Demon of ‘heart’s desire,’ one who takes your passions in life and your deepest wishes and tries to mimic them, feeding off the energy and heart you put into it when you trust it. I had to rebuke it several times before it finally went away, and have been working at doing the same with its friends. I’ve also had to build up my spiritual fortifications, because it has tried to come back several times. I asked for prayer from my family and close friends, and that’s helped as well. But I don’t know if I’ve totally closed that hole. at this point I still feel raw, and a little bit heartbroken. I wont pretend I'm not hurting from this. But I still trust that Yahweh will see me through, and will protect me from more then I can handle.
So I guess the only lesson I have today is to make sure you question the forces that come to you, whether they seem friendly, or scary. Always ask who sent it. and verify everything it says through the bible and what you know of Yahweh himself, as He has revealed to you.
Blessings and love ‘til next time, peeps:-) May Yahweh protect you and give you clear sight and strong hearts.
