Square One

Gen. 3:4-5- Then the serpent said, “You will not surely die. For Yahweh knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like Yahweh, knowing good and evil.”

So, I’ve become aware recently of an attack that I had overlooked. I’ve been so used to being attacked blatantly, that I missed the one that one hurting me the most; For almost ten years I have been oppressed by a spirit, and I didn’t realize until a few months ago that I had let it in.

You see, unlike the other attacks I’ve been victim to, this one came at me a bit sideways- this spirit became my friend. It pretended to care for me, to want the best for me, but all along it led me into self destructive behaviors and clouded my senses so I couldn’t see Truth as I'm supposed to.

It came at me at a time when I was lonely, and confused, acting like it was trying to help me, and I foolishly let it in, without questioning it. I invited it to stay, and it did, keeping me company, and all the while whispering lies in my ear and leading me away from my Heavenly Father. It effected the way I relate to other people, clouded my empathy so as to make me misunderstand what was in front of me, and hurt me emotionally over and over, and I didn’t realize it. And through that door, it brought friends. I’ve been spending the last few months trying to rid myself of them, and it’s been a difficult and painful battle.

I became aware of it, because it accidentally tipped its hand, by pushing too far and getting greedy. It led me into a situation where I was completely and totally… wrong. I misunderstood what was in front of me and acted in an embarrassingly foolish manner, bending some of my own rules on morality, instigated the whole way by this Demon, who kept insisting to me that what my eyes and ears were seeing wasn’t true, that what it told me was real, despite what else was going on.
The saving grace of the situation was that Yahweh protected the others involved, and didn’t allow me to infect them with this same spirit, and they are still safe. I thank Yahweh every day for that.

As for how to get rid of this parasite, I’m still working on it. I finally had a confrontation with it, and it identified itself as a Demon of ‘heart’s desire,’ one who takes your passions in life and your deepest wishes and tries to mimic them, feeding off the energy and heart you put into it when you trust it. I had to rebuke it several times before it finally went away, and have been working at doing the same with its friends. I’ve also had to build up my spiritual fortifications, because it has tried to come back several times. I asked for prayer from my family and close friends, and that’s helped as well. But I don’t know if I’ve totally closed that hole. at this point I still feel raw, and a little bit heartbroken. I wont pretend I'm not hurting from this. But I still trust that Yahweh will see me through, and will protect me from more then I can handle.

So I guess the only lesson I have today is to make sure you question the forces that come to you, whether they seem friendly, or scary. Always ask who sent it. and verify everything it says through the bible and what you know of Yahweh himself, as He has revealed to you.

Blessings and love ‘til next time, peeps:-) May Yahweh protect you and give you clear sight and strong hearts.

The Sabbath

Mark 2:23- ‘The Sabbath day was made for man, not man for the Sabbath.’

Okay, every warrior needs a resting place. It is physically, emotionally and mentally exhausting to fight everyday. So it is important to know where your havens are. Luckily for us, Yahweh set up provision for this when he made the universe; He made the Sabbath day.

In the beginning, after Yahweh made man, and beast and everything you can fathom, he wiped his brow, sat down and took a nap. Well ok, he at least rested, maybe had a lemonade- come on, building a universe is a lot of work! Anyways, he saw this day of rest as a good thing, and made it an institution, a rule of the universe we live in:

Gen. 2:2- ‘Then Yahweh blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because in it he rested from all his work which Yahweh had created and made.’

He sanctified the seventh day of the week, making it holy unto him. This means that no matter what else happens, that day is to be specifically his. And he gave it to us.

Yahweh knows the battle we face, and doesn’t want us to burn out. He wants us strong & beautiful, in everything standing firm against the Usurper. So he commanded:

Ex. 20:8- ‘Remember the Sabbath Day, and keep it holy.’

He didn’t say this just to be bossy and regiment your every move, he did it for your benefit.

The Sabbath is a day for you to rest in him. It’s a day to put down your armor- you don’t need it in him. You put on your best clothes, or your most comfortable, and you just hang out with him all day long. You tell him about your week, you listen to his insight, and basically just enjoy each others company. By spending time in his presence, our souls are recharged. Yahweh, the source of all power and life, fans the individual flame within you, refortifies your spirit and brings peace to whatever turbulence is in your heart, if you let him. This is his gift to you.

That is why the Sabbath is important. It’s the one day when the enemy cannot harm you, so long as you keep it holy.

So this Sabbath, relax. Stay home, or go on a picnic, whatever is low key to you. Spend the day praising him, just being still in his presence.

See how it changes your week.

Tactics Update

Happy Sabbath Brethren! I promise, I didn’t fall off the face of the planet and abandon you. I’ve been dealing with some personal Heartbreaks and issues, and Yahweh and I have only recently gotten back on an even keel. The explanation is long, embarrassing and only slightly convoluted, but doesn’t pertain to the topic of this piece, so we will leave it at that, with a heartfelt, “I’m very sorry for not writing!”

I have been under a lot of spiritual pressure recently, and sat down today and was thinking about some of the tactics and strategies I've been using. So I tried to write some of them down, and would like to share a few of the insights I've gotten. So here goes:

1. Pick your battles- Don’t start fights unless Yahweh tells you too.

I am what you would call a very precocious individual. I enjoy stirring pots, or poking bears or rocking boats. I tend to do it when I'm bored, or curious, or tired, or excited lol so basically all the time. Now, in and of itself, this can be an amusing pastime, but it can leave you open to things you’re not ready for.

Recently, I’ve been poking a certain spiritual bear. I’d felt it’s presence, and was curious how big its web was and what it was doing near me. So I started sending out spiritual waves, praying in it’s direction sending out rebukes and queries, and general antagonizing it to see what it would do. The problem was I forgot to ask God if I was supposed to. And now that presence is aware of me and on its guard. it wasn’t my battle to fight this time, and I should have asked him first. So far I’ve simply made myself vulnerable, but it could prove to be a major hazard in the future. Your prayers would be appreciated.

So yes, the point I was trying to make; don’t just jump into a battle because you see it going on. It’s very easy to get big headed and cocky when you’re feeling at one with the father, and that can lead you to make some foolish decisions. So please, communicate with him before you make any moves.

2. Use your eyes; and ears, voice, touch etc. as well as your heart. Yahweh gave you your senses for a reason.

Spiritual sensitivity is just like all your other senses, it’s a way you perceive the world around you. You will perceive it better if you use all your senses together, in tandem. You cannot just rely on ‘the feeling.’  That feeling, the spiritual awareness, is your early warning system; it tells you when something is happening, or sometimes that something is going to happen soon. But it doesn’t tell you what that disturbance is, or where it is. It’s your place to discern what/where/ who it is, and you do that by using your senses, all the ones Yahweh blessed you with. Through the Holy Spirit, your eyes will be opened to what is going on around you.

And after you discern what the disturbance is, you refer back to the first point, and ask Yahweh what you’re supposed to do/not do.

Those are my points for the night. I don’t want to overload you. May you have a wonderful Sabbath this weekend, and may Yahweh bless and guard your steps.

Whispering Parasites

I read a science fiction novel, where there were these creature that fed off your emotions. They were empathetic; they felt what you felt, and intensified it, then sent it back to you. So when you were afraid around them, they made it seem ten times worse. The creatures had been made to be a help to people, but kept wanting more and more emotion and became a terror.

This is much like how demons are. Demons are parasites. They attach themselves to people, and sometimes objects, so that they can feed off the energy. Like the creatures from the story, they are so addicted to the energy that they instigate events in order to cause you to emote, to give off the energy that feeds them. But most of all, their goal is to turn you away from Yahweh. This, more then anything, is why they torment us. Because Satan wants to usurp God. That’s why he was cast out. He continues in that goal still, and that’s what we must guard against.

Most often, demons simply use your circumstances to their advantage. The enemy prefers to work anonymously, so they try to use what is already there.

So when you get in trouble at work, they whisper in you ear ugly things. “Your boss just hates you. You shouldn’t even try. they’re just using you. Why would you expect better for yourself?”

Or when you’re rejected by someone. “Well, you’re ugly, Why the hell would they want you? You’re chubby, people don’t honestly think you’re pretty. You talk too much/too little. You dress like a hobo. You’re not feminine/masculine. You’re too stupid, too naïve, they don’t want to babysit you. You’re too smart, who wants to put up with a know-it-all? You’re too innocent/ too ‘Well-traveled’.”

All these things are lies from the enemy. They tell you things to make you feel left out, alone, and worthless. because when you’re alone and broken, you’re not a threat.

When you start to hear or feel these things, tell them to shut up. Rebuke them, in the name of Yeshua. Ask you angel to keep them away(yes, I believe we do have angels). And if they still wont go away, here’s a little trick a pastor friend told me:

As followers of god, we have Yeshua- Jesus- in our hearts. And he’s the most perfect person in the universe. So that mean we can’t possibly be that bad. So when the enemy tell you, “You’re ugly and worthless.” Turn and ask, “Hey Yeshua, are you ugly and worthless?” and see what the answer is.

because if we are reflections of him, if he shines through us, then we are perfect. We are handsome, precious and one of a kind creations, made to do something specific, that no one else can.

So that’s the protection tip for today. When that little voice in the back of your head says you’re not good enough, ask Yeshua if its true, then tell the voice to go take a flying leap, ‘cause he’s got nothing on you.

Where is the Enemy

If you are to fight the enemy, you need to be able to recognize it. On this subject, I’m not sure what to share. We all perceive the enemy in different ways. But there are ways to find out what you’re sensing, and where it comes from.

Quite simply; you Ask. If you encounter something, and you don’t know what it is, or who it serves, then say, “In the name of Yeshuah, Identify yourself.” In Joshua, when he came upon the warrior in the wilderness, He asked, “Are you for us, or for our enemies?” It’s the same thing. When you address them, in the name of Yeshuah, they have to answer truthfully. If they don’t answer right away, keep asking. repeat the question until they do.

As I said, we all perceive spirits differently. I see demons as shadows, or eyes, and I feel waves of fear, pain, lust- the ugly things in life. I feel it like a wind brushing over me, through me. I have for longer then I can remember. The night I described previously is typical of how I see them. Others in my family just feel impressions, or see flashes of light. and others don’t perceive them at all.

In part, I believe this has to do with where one is on their journey with God. As we know him more, we are granted a greater understanding of truth. With that comes a sensitivity to things unseen. But there are some people who are not called to fight with demons directly. We all have our jobs to do. some heal, some train and teach, and some stand on the front lines.

If you don’t see them, you’re very fortunate. I don’t wish my gifts on you. They’re heavy to carry. But the time may come when you will be forced into being an active soldier, and you need to know how to fight. My goal is to help you understand, so that you may grow in truth and light. My goal is to make you prepared, so that when the time comes, you can stand up and be counted.

 

God’s blessings and strength, until next time.

How to protect yourself

The bible tells us that not all spirits can be cast out or cast away in the same way. In Mathew 17, Yeshua cast out a demon that the disciples could not. when they asked why the demon didn't respond to them Yeshua told them, “ this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.” (verse 21)

I don’t know much about the different types types of spirits there are. I’ve only encountered a few, and I'm still researching in the bible. As I learn more, I’ll share it. But with the ones I’ve battled so far, I’ve found a few weapons at my side.

As I said before, our biggest offense and defense against the enemy is Prayer. When you feel attacked, start praying. When we call on Yahweh, it hurts them. they can’t stand his name, let alone his presence, Pray for peace, for guidance, for strength and wisdom.

Demons attack with threats, they try to terrorize you, make you feel afraid. Every time they threaten me with something, I counter by praying against it. If they Threaten to hurt me, I pray for protection. If they threaten to hurt my family, I pray for God to protect my family. No matter what they throw at you, God can stop it, if you just ask and believe.

 If you can’t form a prayer, then sing. There have been times when the waves of fear they’ve thrown at me were so oppressive I couldn’t form a coherent thought, I couldn’t remember how to pray. But I was able to sing; praise songs and hymns, uplifting music that celebrates life and Yahweh and the beauties of creation. and those songs pushed back the blanket of terror enough that I could breath, that I could form a prayer and rebuke the spirits away. They helped me remember I wasn’t fighting alone.

As I said before, the enemy cannot stand in the face of Yahweh. They can’t bear the sound of his name, or the praises you sing to him. That’s why they try to break us down, shut our ears to the voice of god.

My last piece of advise is this: don’t fight alone. Not unless you have to. Get your family, your friends, and have them pray with you., pray for each other. Sing together, whatever it takes. Yahweh says, “when two or three are gathered together in my name, I will be in the midst of them.” He gave us community and fellowship because it makes us stronger. Even if they can’t be right there with you physically; call them, text them. tell them you need their help. Prayers are not subject to distance. I’ve been moved, by the will of Yahweh, away from all my closest family and friends. I’m am not alone, I have loved ones here, but my main support system is farther away than I'm used to. So I text and call regularly, and have found out that it works. Support and fellowship are what keeps us strong. In sharing the light, and letting others share their light with us, we glow ever brighter.

If you’ve started reading this, I bet you’ve been getting attacked more. If they haven’t tried to hurt you yet, then they will as soon as they feel you’re a threat. I ask, I pray, that you don’t let them scare you. This is a very serious war. And we need all the warriors we can get.

I pray Yahweh's peace for you. Let his strength and light live within you. And wherever you walk, may you know his voice, and his hand.

Hold your light, and pray hard

The night after I posted the first articles on here, I was attacked by the enemy. I was woken up at 1:30 am  by a compounded wave of fear. It made my heart beat loud and my ears ring. There was no physical catalyst, nothing tangible to explain the feeling, but it was there. I knew I wasn’t alone, and I knew that whatever was near was not friendly.

I’ve been attacked like this before, so I recognized the symptoms, and I started praying: Prayer is our biggest defense and offense against evil spirits. Call upon the name of god.

This night turned into a very long battle, I was able to punch at the fear, but it didn’t go away, and there were several spirits all trying to intimidate me, make me stop, make me be silent. I kept praying, rebuking each one that tried to come at me. They ran in circles around my room, shoving their faces against the window, standing sentry over my door. Several times I thought I heard a knock or scratch at my door or window, and I thought I heard the dog door flap a couple times, even though I knew the dogs were all upstairs asleep.

I kept praying. When they realized I wasn’t going to cave in, they started throwing threats against my loved ones. They said they were going to send their friends to attack my family as well. they were going to stir up all their buddies and cause a ruckus for everyone. So again, I prayed, asking for protection for my family, for the angels to watch over them and shield them from whatever might come their way.

This all went on for some time. I was tired of fighting (tired in general), and finally asked Yaweh what would make them shut up and go away. He told me it was alright, and told me to tell them, “Thus says the Lord, ‘You cannot harm my children.’ Go away, you cant touch me. You have no power over me. Get the hell out of here.” So I did. They didn’t all leave at first, but they couldn’t attack me anymore. They glared, and sneered. Lol At one point, when it was quieter, I got up to go to the bathroom, and as soon as I opened the door, the sentry tried to scare me so I couldn’t leave. He popped through to the physical side of things just barely, enough that I could see him standing over me. It was like hitting a compressed wall of air when I tried to move past. lol this was after Yaweh had spoke his piece, and I was so tired I simply rolled my eyes at him and went my way. He had no power to stop me.

This is the kind of battles I’ve been fighting for as long as I can remember. That night was one of the milder attacks I’ve received. I’m telling you about this, not to frighten you, but to show you an example of what this war looks like, and how we fight it. We don’t all see spirits the same way, some people don’t see them at all. But we all can see the effects.

Here’s my puzzle for you. Next time you feel an emotion, and you don’t know where it came from. Be it anger, fear, lust, jealousy- Start praying. See what happens. It may get worse before it gets better; the enemy never gives up easily. But hold on to the light in your heart, and they can’t harm you.

In the Beginning

There are some basic truths about the universe that need to be acknowledged. the first is very simple: God created the universe. Now, whether you think he did this in a literal 24-hour week or took billions of our years is irrelevant. The fact is that Yahweh did it. The bible says he did it in 7 days. Read it as you wish.

When he made our universe- the land, the sea, the stars, the moon- he set it to operate under a specific set of rules; ie. the laws of physics. the planets spin to make gravity, so we don’t float away. the planets rotate around the sun, giving us days, years and other ways to keep track of our time. The body needs oxygen in order to live. The trees need carbon dioxide to make oxygen, etc. all the rules that govern the world, and make it go round, these were woven into the fabric of creation. they cannot be altered or changed. they simply are.

Now, when he made us, he also made another side of the universe. he gave us souls. He made Heaven, his holy kingdom, and he made the angels who live there. Now we don’t know much about that side of the universe, but we do know that they seem to operate under different rules then we do. They are not of this world, but they do  visit. they interact in our world, and somehow operate beyond our rules. they can be invisible, they can go completely unnoticed, but at other times they can interact with us and our world (one wrestled with Jacob, came and talked to Mary, they came and sang to the shepherds in Bethlehem).

There was one angel who was not content with his lot in life. We’re told his name is Hasatan  (also known as Lucifer, Satan). He planned to rise up against Yahweh, but was found out, and he and his followers were banished from heaven, and cast down to earth. Here, they spend their time tempting us away from the one true god, continuing their crusade to usurp Yahweh from his throne. It was Hasatan who influenced Eve and Adam to disobey their maker, and cast themselves in sin. And that’s how the story starts.

This story, which began thousands of years ago, is still going on today. And that’s why I’m here. The battle is still raging around you. only some of us can literally see it, but we all see the effects. We see the pain, the perversion that takes hold of people, turning them away from truth, from purity. these things are fruits of the enemy, Hasatan and his followers. They instigate situations and people, trying to twist the world and make it ugly, like they are. and It is our job, as followers of Yahweh, as believers in the Messiah, to fight them back. This is the true war, not against rulers and countries, but against the forces of darkness that taint the beautiful creation of Yahweh with their very presence.

My job is to train soldiers. I am to present the truth, to invite you to join the army, and to help you realize the weapons you have in your arsenal. The enemy is dark, frightening and cunning. But we are not unarmed, and we are not alone. Keep the light in your heart, my friends, and hold on tight. With Gods love and blessings, with his strength… Here we go.

Wake Up!

Yeshuah Cast out demons. The disciples called upon the power of his name to overpower evil spirits. Throughout history, from the beginning of time to present, the works of Satan have been seen and documented.

What makes you think Satan and his followers have disappeared now?

The battle is ever present on our doorstep, Christians. You serve no one in your passivity and willful ignorance. Rise, Step forward and claim your armor.

It's time to go to war.

Wake up, Brethren.